metal ghost

my heaven and hell are the same

they switch back and forth a thousand times a day

discover undo rediscover undo in the ice cold cement

she says i need to make my bed since im not paying rent

a whole world that i can't show anyone

a whole world that thinks that i'm not anyone

but i am, but iam

when your favoritre songs dont touch you

and the only ones who love you seem so tragically flawed

don't they all, don't they all

i've seen everything from every angle

my life's been reduced to a third-rate tale

i heard back in school

the enlightened one doomed to be seen as a fool

and when you're stuck out at the gate

envy quickly turns to hate

and everyone will seem

the victims of a shallow dream

stuck in a rough draft, a terminal lab

where you're always on empty no matter how much you have

he traded black tar fro black oil paint

he's memorizing the words of some other default saint

if you see what could be, you'll be paralyzed by what is

if you see everything, you can't be sure of anything

i was standing outside of the world, staring at all the ugly machnies

i was screaming up at the sky, knowing damned well no one was gonna intervene

if you were to face what i'm fighting, for even a second, you would hate yourself for all the grief you've given me

ELW

you havent eaten in at least a week

and i can smell the three bottles of wine on your breath when you speak

but i dont wanna speak cause you just make me sad

cuz you dont measure up to everything i had

you're not ugly and you're not stupid deither

it's just that if you're lost for long enough you become a believer

you're mother's distant, your dad's a drunk, you are both

you're always acting, i bet you'd lie under oath

you talk and you dont recognize yourself, its out of your control

you're under blood red sky tryin g to satsify the hole

that guides yoou and tries take you for all your worth

we belong together, we were doomed from birth

you watch your friends disappear one by one

you spent three hours drunk looking at your fathers gun

you makle the same mistakes, get the same results, and are still somehow stunned

i pray youll get over it and say"i was so stupid when i was young"

but thats just justification

i know there's no solution to your condition

and ill stop talking to you again

when you're most in need of a friend

in four months ill be drunk and call you up

and you'll desperate and ill be good enough

i know it's wrong to treat someone like this

but my head is on fire and i need someone to kiss

and i thought you were in the same boat,

pouring another half liter down your throat

if we're doomed let's be doomed together

at least until i get sick of you again

:O

let's take a page out of everyone's book and write a new one

let's realize everyone has it right and wrong in equal measure

he's both a victim and an offender

there's virtue in everything, persistence and surrender

you were stupid but at least you were you

i see new pictures, see what you've reduced yourself to

but when you were seventeen you had so much potential

maybe it's inevitable

or maybe i've just been away for too long

maybe i've just been away...

but if you never know the worst, you can never know the best

you'll never be really something if you've never been a mess

finally the hell has all come to a rest

a feeling anything could happen burning in my chest